What If.....

I have touched on this before, but this is something that has really been going through my head a lot lately. I have found myself making deals with God. Do you ever do that? If You will just make me better, then I will..................WHOA!!!!!! That statement is a BIG problem. In all honesty, there are no guaratees in this life that I will ever see full health. In fact, dare I say, my life nor that of any one of you, will EVER be easy. That is what Jesus said.

John 16:33

New Living Translation (NLT)

³³ I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”

But it seems to be human nature to want things easy. At least, it seems to be Katie nature. Back to my main point, will I serve Him, If He never heals me? If He nevers gives me a child? Will I remain faithful? To be honest, I haven't. I have grown so incredibly weary. I haven't always done what I should. I haven't always been the person the Lord has called me to be, treated others He how He asks me to. Sometimes I have not stood up for Him and His Word and His Ways the way I knew I should. Being weary in a lousy excuse, in the light of all that He has done.

This is a real question we all need to face, whatever our struggles. Really face. It is easy to flippantly say yes. I once did. But you know what, He is greater than any desire I have, than any pain I have.

There are some steps I am taking to do better. I am getting rid of things in my life that cause me to dwell on the negative aspects of my daily struggles. I am going to push through. I will win, one way or another. In this life or the next. I am saved by grace, washed in the blood of the lamb. I have fallen short, but Jesus's grasp reaches wherever I am.

If anyone else has faced this, Hold Fast to the One that will never let you go. Because if you have trusted in Him, I promise He is holding on to you.