I’ve asked this question so many times it is ridiculous. I still don’t completely understand the whys. But I do know I have learned so much from my illnesses. I wouldn’t have been near as empathic as I am now. I am not sure about what my desire to help others push past what they are going through would have been otherwise. I wouldn’t be seeking God as I am. Although I went through a period of time where I blamed his.
Now that brings me to a whole other why. Why did God allow this to happen? I spent so many years so mad at God. Furious. I never stopped believing in Him. But I stopped believing He loved me. If He loved me He would heal me. It didn’t help that I had gone to a church that believed God always healed. Always. And if He didn’t heal you it was because you didn’t have enough faith. That church was seriously off the mark. Nothing they taught was true. After years of anger, God finally started to soften my heart. We found a great church here in Jackson. That helped. They preach the truth from the BIBLE. Not man made scripture. Or twisted scripture. Hearing about God and who is He helped. He is good. He wanted what is best for us. What is best for us may not be a healing. And on this side of heaven I may never fully understand the why.
Why. Well, God can heal. That is shown throughout the Bible. But He also allows some to suffer. For the most part, we are given the stories throughout the Bible of those that He touched and healed. And by touched, I don’t always mean physically. What can we learn from suffering? Like I said we can learn to be more empathic towards others if we allow. Knowing how we suffer and how much others might be, whether they show it or not may allow us to be kinder. To be gentler. If we allow this lesson. Others harden their hearts which is a shame. We learn reliance and humility. Some of us rely on others for care. Without my husband to take care of me I don’t know where I’d be. It is hard accepting help. Which is where humility comes in. We are humbled. Not humiliated. Just humbled.
Reliance is the big one though. Not just reliance on others which is big for some of us, but reliance on God. Maybe those of us that are ill would never learn how much we truly need a savior. Someone that has been there. That know what suffering is. Jesus, God, came to earth. Simply to die for our sins. His entire ministry is wrapped up in that. He came to die. Brutally. He suffered horrendously. He knows physical pain. He can empathize. And He did it all for us. Now, if it ended there, then He would be like any other god. Dead. But He isn’t dead and I can’t begin to tell you how excited this makes me. He snatched the keys to hell and rose again. He is ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alive people. That makes Him different. He died. Truly died. And now he isn’t dead. For now, the devil roams the earth looking for those he can destroy. But I won’t be one of those. He won’t destroy me. I will follow my Lord. Jesus is coming back and when He does, those that are in Christ, those that have believed in Him. Not just believed honestly but have surrendered to Him will rise with Him. There will be no more suffering. No more pain.
I will be healed. It may not be on this side of heaven. But it will happen. But for now, I will believe. I will believe that He is a God that cares. A God that loves me beyond anything I can possibly imagine and wants me full surrender. He wants me. Crazy huh? Messed up me. Unfaithful, sinner like me. I am a sinner still. I fail Him daily. Yet He still wants me.
Now for the big reveal: How do I make it to heaven. It is so simple. He doesn’t make it complicated. You have to believe in Who He is. Who He says He is. Believe he is God come down to earth to die for our sins. Believe you are a sinner in need of a Savior. And simply ask Him into your life. It is that simple. You will change. I did over night but for some it is more gradual. And that is okay. He is a loving, patient God. And He wants what is best for us. Knowing that makes me want to do better. I can’t tell you the sins He has set me free from. Because He loves me. I will end it on this note. There is nothing greater to add. Believe in Him and you will seal your place in heaven. No one will ever be able to steal that from you. I want to go to heaven. Hell doesn’t sound much fun.
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